Posts Tagged ‘serenity’

Sumin….

March 30, 2009

After a hard, back-breaking day, I got back home in time for nothing useful or productive, so decided that today was the day I was going to Start Swimming. And so off I went to our little poolette….

The water felt like silk (ok, well, it *could* have been warmer I guess, especially the pre-swim shower which our building authorities seem to have connected up to some Himalayan snow-fed spring.) I was happy to notice that months of absence have not slowed me down too much (yes, I could ..er..’fasten’ up my laps a little!)…and that I could do 30 laps with no difficulty at all. (The laps in our pool are also lapettes.)

I am feeling so fresh, though tired…the frustrations of the day have dropped away, and I am at peace with all the world again, even with the mason and plumber who were my main instruments of torture the whole day long…

How lucky I am to have this pool of blue, clean water to swim in as long as I wish to. How many generations hence will swimming pools be a thing of the past?

Meanwhile, on Sunday I went for the Lalbagh Heritage Walk, organized by Max Mueller Bhavan as an Urban Space Event; here’s a close-up of a Traveller’s Palm that I took…

travellers' palm lalbagh 290309

Let not anyone tell you that abstract art is nothing like Nature makes…Nature has abstract art everywhere; lovely designs, numbers, one-off pieces of exquisite creativity…

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All the things that got broken this weekend can be repaired….

March 1, 2009

Yesterday I was on my way to the Heritage Walk when someone whom I had been trying to contact all morning, called on my mobile. I was awkwardly getting out of an auto….so my bag fell down…and my precious MLC (Canon S3)…isn’t working any more. Off to Thomas of Cambridge Layout tomorrow…wish me luck folks, it’s like my child is having surgery..I am SO attached to that camera!

mohanvee, I would like to see your photographs too…

Luckily, Divya had a new S5, and she just took out her SD card, I put in mine, and used it to take all the pictures…and Malleswaram was a treasure of heritage indeed! Thank you, Divya, that was indeed nice of you.

I just typed “sugery”and the ads next to my LJ window changed to all sorts of medical ads!

Something else nearly got broken for good; I was almost on the point of cutting off something, but I decided, it’s worth the effort, swallowed my frustrations and feelings and am persevering…and I think it’s going better now. I hope my efforts are not in vain!

Q. What did Dracula say about the beautiful lady?

A. I love her in vein.

I am in one of my silly moods, when I miss giggling uncontrollably and idiotically with that daughter of mine, over everything and nothing…

Wish me luck with my poor little MLC, and I hope I don’t have to pay out a very large sum as a repair bill!

I had a wonderful weekend so far….an easy trip to Bannerghatta with Vijay Hegde (for once, no one else was free…we just took a Number 365 from my front gate to Bannerghatta and came back the same way!). Here are the white lilies on the plake (between a pond and a lake) near the Bannerghatta Butterfly Park area….

Doesn’t give a great sense of serenity?

Ten minutes

October 25, 2008

It’s rare to find….
Ten minutes in the middle of a busy day.
But just now…it’s happened.
Most of my chores are done;
The last bit of lunch can be started
After a little while…
There is a sense of peace,
Things done, being on top
Instead of the usual scramble to keep up.
It’s peaceful in this room;
The weather’s lovely, cool and cloudy,
And I feel serene.
Happiness consists of…
Ten minutes like this, in little pieces, here and there,
I hope…I always find these ten minutes of peace each day.

Agony…

October 6, 2008

Sometimes, the most intense agony is the one that has to be borne silently…my prayers are with someone who is suffering terribly right now.

I was struck by the serenity and peace of this scene on the first floor of “Dodda Mane”, the 108-year-old house where “Malgudi Days” was shot. The books speak of reading, the chair at the window, of contemplation, peace, and a quiet pace of life….

A quiet scene, beautiful in its stillness…no TV, no video games, no hectic action. A place where a human being is not a human doing.

Emotions

July 20, 2007

Incredible…again and again, it happens, and we think, next time we’ll learn…but no, we don’t.

Truly, our emotions make fools of us. When we are swayed by emotion and feelings, rationality takes a back seat; the emotions cloud one’s judgement, and we start justifying our actions to ourselves, saying that because of a, b, c reasons, what we are doing is the only course possible.

Another person does something that we feel to be wrong. We lose our equilibrium over it, and decide on a course of action–well, more a reaction to the other person’s action– which is, in a different way, also incorrect.

We still the small voice within us that tells us, no matter what the behaviour of another person may be, we should not put ourselves also in the wrong. When friends point out something that is incorrect in our own hehaviour,we cut the friends off, much as we cut off our inner voice. At this time of roused emotions and stirred feelings, we do not want to hear anything except our own point of view; we want to feel justified in what we are doing.

It’s incredibly difficult not to let emotions and feelings rule us…all our efforts to conquer our emotions seem to fail within a split second when our feelings reach a flashpoint, and a normally rational response is destroyed by our emotional storm. The tsunami of feelings rages, and the calm landscape of our minds is laid waste.

I think it is freedom from the rough and tumble of our emotions that the Buddha speaks of as serenity…that calm in the face of both happiness and sorrow that gives us Nirvana…perfect tranquillity. But for the average human being, that serenity is as far out of reach as the far side of the moon.

It’s easy to think that one has found that serenity, when things are going well. It is when the tides turn against us that we come up against the negative emotions and find that we are, after all, still being tossed upon the roller-coaster ride that our emotions take us on.

There is a beautiful bhajan by Guru Nanak, which talks of the qualities of such a human being:

jO nar dukh mein
dukh nahin mAney
sukh saneh aru bhay nahin jAkey
kanchan mAti jAney…

aru nindA stuthi bhay nahin jiskO
lObh mOh abhimAnA
harash sankatEy rahE niyAri
nAhin mAn apmAna….

AshA man kA sakal thyAg key
jagtey rahEy nirAshA
kAm krOdh jehi tharsEy nAhin
jyoon hi ghat brahm nivAsA

guru kirupa jinhi nar pE keenhin
thinhi ih jugti picchAnhi…
nAnak leen bhayO gObind sO
jyoon pAni sang pAni…

The man who does not see sorrow in sorrow,
Who is equally unfraid of pleasure and attachment,
He knows gold to be mud…

The man who is not afraid of scorn or praise,
Who is immune to greed,infatuation or egotism;
He retains his calm in both happiness and in crisis;
He has no sense of pride, or shame…

The man who has given up all the desires of his mind,
And lives, desireless;
The one whom neither lust nor anger can oppress…
Therein lives the BrahmaN.

The man who has the mercy of his Guru
Is followed by the world;
Nanak wants to be one with the lord (Gobind)
Like water becomes one with water…

Post Script:

Er…no. Nothing has happened to ME…this is just a philosophical, rhetorical, academic reflection!