Posts Tagged ‘dreams’

Not sweet dreams

March 29, 2014

I do not like the places
I go to, in my dreams.
My sadness at separation
From the beloved children
Is, while being worked on,
Hidden deep in my heart.
The sorrow of the end
Of more than three decades of marriage
Lurks there, too,
In the dark crevices of my heart
The wrongs I have done: the hurts I have caused
The many things I could have done better….
All these are not, as I thought,
Dealt with, and forgotten.
They hang, with little burrs,
In my subconscious mind.
Perhaps this is why I rarely dream;
Because, when I do,
I go to these places.
I feel, once again,
What I do not want to feel.
Scenes flash before my consciousness
That I thought I’d discarded…
No, I just seem to have buried them
Beyond the reach of my everyday thoughts.
They come out, and mock me.
Sadness, loneliness, regrets:
They once again assail me.
I wish they would not.
I do not like the places
I go to, in my dreams.

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The Dreamcatcher

July 27, 2011

In my cousin’s car, I found a decoration that I was curious about:

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When I asked him about it, he told me that it was an Indian dreamcatcher. That intrigued me, and just now (to avoid the work of unpacking or sorting mail etc) I googled for it, and got

The Wiki entry about the Dreamcatcher

How lovely is the thought that hanging one above the bed of a child will “catch” the nightmares and prevent the child from being distressed by them! Here’s the quotation from American ethnographer

Frances Densmore :

“It was said that they “caught any harm that might be in the air as a spider’s web catches and holds whatever comes in contact with it.”

I wish I could have a Realitycatcher over my bed….I’d be spared a lot of harmful, not-nice reality that I don’t want to face! The taxes that I must file, the death of a neighbour, bad health…oh, the Realitycatcher would be saturated soon, I suppose. 🙂

New year’s Day…

April 14, 2005

It is the beginning of another Tamizh Year..Paarthiba Varusham…against all experience and cynicism, hope springs anew that THIS year, things will improve, politicians everywhere will come to their senses, good governance will begin….

India can call herself the greatest democracy in the world when the average Mr Ram in his little one-room tenement need not stand in queues for many things (admittedly, less than before), doesn’t have to pay babus to get his work done, and can have access to good water, if not clean air and some amount of greenery.

Until then…we live in hope. Putthaandu Vaazhtthukkal to everyone…especially to Murthys_r_s and Madhumk who also celebrate their new Year…and to SIG, who is struggling with a mammoth task at work.

I have been meeting a few very interesting people lately….in the quiz and theatre fields. More about this later.Life is full, and happy, and interesting.My beloved spouse is bent over his PDA which crashed, trying to get some life into it; CNBC is yowling in the background…I am at home, at peace and perfectly content.